Bismillah ir Rahman ir Raheem
Assalam alaikum wr wb, peeps.
Once again – not feeling great.
It’s not more of the same. Was feeling good then had a sudden turn of weather.
What does feeling bad feel like to me? In a word – exhaustion. My head hurts, my stomach and chest hurts. I feel like a rubber band stretched too tight. This has been happening far too often lately and I think Allah (Subhaana Wa Ta’aala) is telling me it’s time for a change.
I think Allah (Subhaana Wa Ta’aala) is trying to tell me to slow down and live with more intention. Intention is not scrabbling for power in the darkness, smacking away every human being that comes close. Intention is grabbing what you got and going after it.
Problem is, I don’t know what I got and I don’t know what I’m going after.
In other words – I haven’t planned my year yet. I know – it’s February.
As I said before, I hate planning. I hate disappointing myself.
But I’ve recently shifted my perspective on planning. Planning is simply a tool to help me show up with – you guessed it – the right intention insha Allah. If things go well, Alhamdulillah (thank God)! If not, thank God! Perhaps something better will fall into place.
Better late than never.
May Allah (subhaana wa ta’aala) help me get over my allergy to planning. May He make my week of rest and reflection productive and inspiring. May I be set up practically and spiritually for the rest of the year. Ameen!
May Allah (subhaana wa ta’aala) grant us success in this life and the next.
Wassalam and Fee Amanillah,
The Happy Muslimah.